Below is an image from Forza Motorsport 3’s photo mode. I took this while racing with two friends.

I took this image to photoshop to create a sig for a forum and came up with the following.

Let me know what you think. Note: I cut the spoiler off of the Mercedes. This will be fixed. =)

All around me, I find my influence,
Of all these things, I try to make sense,
Even in a perfect picture, of the perfect dawn,
It remains inside me, that which drives me on,
Never a complaint, nor the harshest scolding,
Could open my eyes to what my hands were holding,
And while I search for whom I want to be,
This self-realization has set me free.

A Soldier.

When you look into your dreams and see your

brothers beside you with a helmet, a gun, trenched

in mud listening to his voice the best you can…

among the gunfire..

you think the sky is falling down.

You know i have achieved alot today. I got my

own apartment…a nice apartment. Its mine. I

got a big screen t.v with surround sound with a

xbox 360….a polar bear rug, full kitchen set.

But you know what i really don’t give a damn.

i got money online in poker…i am just waiting

for my bonus to clear…but i really fucking

dont give a damn…i dont fucking care…I dont give a damn.

But do you know why i don’t give a fucking monkey rats fucking a.s.s(excuse my profanity….i am just writing what i think). It’s because….in life..in life……it don’t mean a damn thing. What means the most to me is my soldiers.

I speak to you in Truth…i Speak to you in volume…..i Speak to you as my brother…..Charles Dustman i speak to you alone as my Brother.

We never see each other but i think…….i think….i wish to know….that it will change very soon…God Willing.

I don’t know much of what to say but you are a good soldier and i would be proud to die for our country in your platoon. If you were to die in my arms….you would achieve the Medal Of Honor my brother. Don’t ever forget our memories…..our words.

I am far from a soldier….The real soldier’s are fighting for our freedoms as we sleep peacefully in our deluxe apartments and vacation sweets. The real soldiers are fighting for our way of being an American…..they are sleeping in harms way in a TENT for God sakes. Keep reading my passages you will soon relize my way of thinking….I give no pity for the rich….i dont worship their money,…they never really deserve it.

You know i have a dream……if i do….if  i do make it in my day.  I am a very great poker player online….and live. Once i take from the rich. I will give it back to the children….i will cherish the America’s poor with toy’s. That is my dream…..and i will live my dream…or die trying.

This is for our SOLDIERS!!!!!!!!

God Bless Everyone

You know….

I am just but a simple man.

I do love…..i do hurt….i do cry…i do feel. When

i write today….i write because there is something

inside of me that tells me to….because i do feel.

I dont write very much nor do i wish to because

i don’t want to….let me put it this way i don’t

want to think when i write i just want to write

what i feel…..do you understand?…….

for i am just a simple man.

It’s always good to think about what u write but

to me it isnt the same. When you pause amongst

yourselves or you think of something smart to

say it doesnt mean didly squat to me for i am

just a simple man.

When you correct yourselves in the appropiate way for knowone to relize you did….i don’t care. When i write i write because i feel like i should write..not for you…but for me.

I am just a simple man that i do care more then the average man…my heart pumps faster….my desire to feel…my desire to accomplish is the same or better.

but still i a am a simple man.

I will love my family…..i will always love my family…i will protect my family…i will DIE…for my family..i will.

I will fight for my country, i will stand up for what’s right..

I will.

But still i am a simple man.

I had a sudden glance or vision as i was riding
to the store. It was like any other ride as my legs

where moving fast as they should but only faster

because i told them to push faster.

Then i stopped….i looked around me and i paused

for a moment….i stopped. I looked up at the sky

only to see our wonderful blue sky we see each day

. I glanced at all the people moving in cars beside

me and I really thought to myself.

God i really love, thank you for all that you have

giving me, my eyes,….my legs,…my arms…my brain

and everything that i have that i take granted for.

Stop and think about yourself. Stop and think for just one second what would life be…..Let’s break it down my men…my brothers…my sisters. What if your brain told you to get up and walk to the fridge….but you didn’t have any legs because they got blown off by a mortar in the moment of war to capture our VERY FREEDOM, or didn’t work no MORE BECAUSE OF CANCER!.

Let’s stop to think if we wanted to lift an object but couldn’t because our arms had to be cut off to save a life?….to save a child in a split second?. Let’s stop and think what would it be like to just THINK of what life would be like to not see the board at school, to not read our assignment at work because we was unfortunate to be born blind.

Lets just stop and think what it would be like not be to able to move. To be parylized from the neck down. Now as i write this it is getting harder and harder to keep the tears from dripping down my eyes….It’s real hard my brothers…it’s real hard everybody to stop and think what u HAVE…..WHAT YOU HAVE!!.

It hurts…..as the tears fall down my eyes my fingers slide up and down this keyboard only to relize that i am ONE LUCKY MOTHER FUCKER!…..and i mean that from the bottom of my heart because i wouldnt have it any other way.

So…..a tear drop down my face…a pause to close my eyes. It’s hard to breathe….but i thank God that i am breathing…..Amen.

Thanks God Bless Everyone.

This… Is my first attempt at a song… and was written at a rather.. difficult time.  But I figured, what the heck, might as well show it to the rest of the world… or, at least, you guys ^_^ Enjoy..

Come To Stay

Verse 1
Why does every day out here
Seem so freakin long to me?
Is it cuz I have no life,
Have no friends, no family?
Why can’t I admit im scared of letting someone close to me?
I think it s my insecurity.

Chorus 1
All alone, all alone out here
Nothing but me and my endless tears
Let your feelings fall away
Come to heaven come to stay

Verse 2
The devils closing in on me
Grinning yellow, rotted teeth
Standing there with open arms
Me succumbing to his charms
I turn to run but he’s still here
Whispering softly into my ear

Chorus 2
You’re all alone, all alone out here
Nothing but you and you’re endless tears
Let you’re feelings fall away
Come with me, child,
Come to stay

Verse 3
I have lots of friends down here
Long forgotten is my trail of tears
But I still here you call my name
And I yearn to see your face again
But I can’t leave here, here im strong
I wish to god you had come along

Chorus 3
Not alone anymore out here
But you’re the glisten in my tears
I may not have a beating heart
But you’ve been with me from the start
Just let your feelings lead the way
Come to me, love
Come to stay

NOTE:  Both Files auto play.  Stop them both, then click play on one at a time.

Keep in mind, there isn’t much talent here and even lesser structure to these audio clips.  They are entirely improvisation, hence the chaos.  My purpose is to record, listen, improve, record, listen, improve, repeat.  If in the interim I can obtain some feedback from people I know and also those I don’t, I’ve accomplished a bit more.  Thus, the reason I place a sample or two here.

Mic: Samson Q1U USB

Specs: USB interface, 16bit 48kHz sampling rate AD converter, 50Hz-18kHz response range

I placed the software on my computer (Cakewalk Music Creator LE) and wasn’t able to figure it out just yet.  It’s ironic, considering the fact that the thing is called Cakewalk.  However, I put together a recording method using Windows Movie Maker that seemed to work fairly well for now.  It’s MONO sound, so it’ll only come out of your left speaker.  I’ll improve the recording quality, etc, soon but for now, let me know what you think!

Recording 1 – Electric Using Flash

Recording 2 – Acoustic Using Flash

This is a gallery of the photos I was able to take during a few day light hours I was fortunate enough to have over my business trip to Dublin, Ireland.  More explanation surrounding the trip and the specific sites in the pictures is still to come.  Overview of pictures includes:

• The Temple Bar
• Irish Museum Of Modern Art
• Hilton Hotel Kilmainham
• Kilmainham Goal Museum
• Dublin Castle
• St. Patrick’s Cathedral
• Christ Church Cathedral
• Guinness Storehouse

Click on the individual thumbnails for a direct link to that photo page, then click on the image itself for a larger view.

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trapped in a box made of your taunts
suffocating in impossible wants
my lungs are full of a burning fire
for you, a smoking desire
hazy visions fill my head
my ears ringing with everything you ever said
eyes burning with every tear you ever brought
you were the one that i sought
but nothing like i had thought
in your eyes i can see the mirrors
the reflection of every flaw appears
vivid and bright
shining in your light
outlined in red
every horrible thing i ever said
every one of my imperfections
turned out to be my destruction
i’m banging on the walls
dodging every horrid call
screaming for an escape
trying to undo this mistake
but with every step forward
i’m two steps backward
i can’t reach the old you
i can’t reach the old me
the love that was true
or who we used to be
my heart’s exploding with every need
each and every emotion screaming to be freed
screaming out for your fading shadow
begging and pleading for you not to go
still trapped in your taunts
i’m drowning in the wants
wrapped tightly in the misery
that seems to have a love for me
breathing your name
crying for everything to be the same
your smile running through my head
and from my ears spilling every word you said
every word unspoken
eating at a heart that’s broken
every cuel word echoing throughout my body
gripping at me
and choking me
i can’t break out of your hold
no matter what i’m told
i loved you
and i know you loved me too
our hearts are bound by bloody tears
tears that will never break despite the years
i am yours
and you are mine
even if all i see is your fading outline

Yeah… sorry… i seem to have gone on a posting spree XD ))

The frozen waves of this concrete sea
Bear me so softly away from you—
Separate, unchanging, this gentle
Broken line of dirt and rock,
Sand and stone and

How I wish we could be together!
How pointless it all seems,
This pain, this separation.
With each rise, each fall,
Each wave,

Each breath I take,
The distance grows,
You’re a little farther away,
And when will I find you
Again? Tell me—

Why does this
Frozen sea seem to move
So swiftly? How will you
Remember me, once I am
Gone? Or

Will you simply slip back into
Dreams of shattered nights
And twilight, waking
Memories of days you’ve
Yet to spend? If I come

Back to you with
Years between us, will you still
Be the same? Will I fall into
Your sweet electric embrace
The same old way? Or

Will I find that
You and I have become
Disjointed, awkward, and
In the end we’ll split apart
And go

Our own ways?
But that cannot be—
For there is no path that,
In the end, does not lead
Back to you.